My Useless Life - The Diaries

PROLOUGE:
Nothing is for me

Nothing was for me

Anyone and anywhere doesn't mean anything

Not like that I ever felt good about myself

Everywhere I turn, are bad people

Bad things, bad everything

My heart is slowly bleeding the pain away

My head is a battlefield

Nothing is for me

Nothing ever will be

I see sucessful people

I see wonderful happy people

But what I see in myself

Is an empty heart with little care

You will never love me

I don't know myself anymore

Why is this to be?

Why is this a lie?

Nobody cares that much....it's funny

How ruthless people can be

Is it because of me?

Why?

Bye...

My Personal Views:
Why is this person accepted? He has hurt you. Hurt you so much. I've never hurt you, ever. But you accepting him is a letdown for me. It makes me feel like a failure, something I've always been pinned as. Nothing I do is ever right, apparently. I have nothing to say other then I feel so upset and let down. Depressed and misunderstood. There's nothing I can do, despite what I mean. I feel very underestimated when I'm around you, but I never say anything because I am afraid of losing you. Are you loyal? Are you? What am I doing? Why am I writing this? I can't let the tears drop onto the keyboard, but it's already too late. Can I keep the promise? I don't know anymore...